You make the best of what you have been given, give Him thanks, reside for Him as well as you probably can, and also you let go of what doesn’t make sense. Sometimes it’s so dangerous you don’t need to stay anymore and typically you’re so fed up with it, you harden your self to not care. All I know is that God’s word is true – He cares for us, He sees our ache and He doesn’t withhold good from us. That which the enemy meant for evil, God will use for our good. I will still not cease seeking to Him because I am assured He will use this trial for a objective in accordance with what He has known as me to in this life. Especially when a lot is made about being content in singleness and how if you’re not then by some means there is something mistaken with you and your religion. If I was actually saved then I would not be looking to man to make me joyful.
I find it hard to consider that a relationship with God is enough for any human. If it have been than why do ministers get married or any religious person for that matter? Being single is cruel and unusual punishment and writing on blogs is the only place you can honestly speak about it. You have been by way of a lot and you’re still here by the grace of God.